Is it Really Hard to Say Goodbye?

Alas, our time is almost up. She's leaving in 8 hours.

But will it really be hard to say goodbye?

After all, she isn't really leaving.

She's leaving memories of a bliss 10 days and a mark in my heart.

I may not see her again for a couple of months, and maybe the next time I see her she won't be the same. A lot can happen in that time.

The biggest problem I have is dealing with the fact that all eyes are on her.

She has a magnetic personality that makes it hard for guys not to look twice.

I may not be much, and there are a lot of other guys who would be better for her than I will ever be. I'm not the best looking guy. I'm not the richest dude. I'm not the smartest person. And I'm definitely not the only person who can love her.

Nonetheless, the only thing I promise is that I will be the one to love her most - even if she won't be able to give love back. Not yet.

A task lays before me which I must gather up all my strength to tackle it. I am faced by time and distance, two of the most irritating bastards related to love. Is the bond that she and I have developed over the past months of knowing each other and the 10 days of being with each other enough to pass the challenge of time or will it wither away like every single tragic love story in history? I honestly hope that the effort that I have exerted these past days were enough to make an impact in her life. A lasting memory of love.

Last night in one of our conversations, I asked her if I had a chance with her. If I had a chance to share a relationship with her. If I had a chance that in return for loving her, she would love me back. At first she tried to avoid giving me a clear answer, and with my understanding of basic human psychology, failure to affirm a yes or no question 99% of the time means that the answer is no. Any slight hesitation to say yes always means the opposite. So I asked her again. And again. Until she finally said:

"I don't want to rush things! It's so hard! We are far from each other! YES! I'm starting to fall for you but it's too early!"

This made me smile. Inside.

This alone is enough for me to hold on to - something to keep in my mind. Now I know that everything will be worth the wait.

It won't be hard nor will it be painful for me to say goodbye to her, because I realized that each goodbye brings the next hello closer. :)

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A Status Message from my Facebook account (facebook.com/alanfrancisang)

Let's take it slow, let's enjoy each time we're together, let's cherish every memory, let's live every moment to the fullest babe. I'll wait for the day when you will say "Take me away"